7 Levels of my Hell

 Brub. (And I'm going to say this in all caps because that's how I fucking feel.) You have no fucking clue how much I miss you. So many things I wish to say to you. but the most that means everything to me is are you happy are you okay is Mom taking care of you? Are you doing good in school are you proving to the world how smart you are? 8 days. Once I had custody of you that was the longest I've gone without you. I went to the other side of the world and couldn't get you off of my mind the entire time I was there. I cut my vacation short it's not your fault I did it because I wanted to but I spent $900 to come back immediately to see you. I love you Brub, I hope one day I'm able to hug you again. 

 I keep dreaming of you.  I don't know what to say to you the day I get to see you again.

  Hello Sir, First of all, I want to start this conversation off on the right foot.  But honestly, have you EVER given me even a second to speak directly with you?  No sir, you have not.   Let me explain a little bit about me.   FIRST of all.  The only thing I care about in this entire universe is my kids.  NOTHING else.    To be honest I'm glad that someone is finally paid attention and is looking out for my son.   The previous Law Guardian really didn't care at the end because he asked to be recused because he didn't fucking care. Robert's mother was found guilty of neglect after Robert received 2nd degree burns on 60% of his body because his mother didn't care to apply sunscreen a few years ago.  I tan lovely, "mom" on the other hand is the example of white.  You've stated to the judge that you personally want to take a case against me.  I find that so hard to stomach because in my mind I'm saying to myself "what the fuck have I done to rec

 I am saying this. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I'm sorry babies. I wish I was a better father.

 Robert. I miss you so fucking much.  I know I failed you.  I know I lost control and became a drug addict scumbag.   I had ONE job.  I did it for a while until I became a worthless piece of shit.  'm so fucking sorry.  Things could have been different. It's my fault, everything is my fault.  I should have been better I should have shown you more.  PLEASE change the world for the positive. I love you 3,000   #provemewrong

 You gave me Hepatitis C.  If it's untreated  you die from it  You're the first person I've had sex with in well over 5 years.  I've never shared a needle with anyone, so you are absolutely the answer.  I already know your story.  You moved in with your BF and her boyfriend.  You wanted him that's where your 3-some relationship began.  I don't have a problem with that in fact I think that's the next step of human evolution.   THIS is where yo u're nothing but a.....yeah going to say it WHORE. You met me in  rehab  YOU asked me to come into the bathroom to kiss you.  Then moments later asked me go back and kiss you even harder. YOU'RE the one that crawled into my bed in rehab because you wanted me to hold you.   BOTH my kids mothers are fucking sociopaths, they truly are. But they've never asked me for the kind of love you requested.  When we met you were what, 110lbs.  You come here and you're at least 140. What did I do, immediately grab you

 My baby, what's the dogs name?