This ins't goodbye, at least I hope
Ernst Hemingway.
Probably one of the greatest writers of the 20th Century.
I have never felt so closer. Here's a man that the weight of his own knowledge led to his demise. Which I still think the jury is out if his wife didn't kill him.
I understand him now more than ever. Knowledge isn't power, it's a curse.
Knowing what I know, seeing what I've seen this isn't a blessing. it's insanity.
When your whole life you've only tried to do the right thing only to have it thrown back into your face that it's just a mistake is a lot to take into.
I WAS THE WORLDS MOST AMAZING FATHER. THE TIME I SPENT WITH MY CHILDREN WAS THE MOST AMAZING AND UNFORGETTABLE TIME OF MY LIFE.
They were my everything.
Because my daughter was used as currency so her drug addict mother could get her next fix and I went after everyone that refused to listen I'm now being showed what happens when you "fight the system."
My daughter is going to talk, just like she talked to me IN DETAIL what they did to her. "Mom" and Danny or what Erin MADE her call her, Daddy.
Everything my daughter has told me I honestly wouldn't tell my worst enemy. It's that fucking bad. I still struggle to live with myself knowing my daughter has been over and over forcefully raped and I couldn't do a fucking thing to protect her.
That's why I'm a failure as a person, father and human being.
I know eventually I'm going to be murdered, drink myself to death or do what I probably should have done decades ago and kill myself.
No matter what happens in the future I accept it's what was meant for me.
I just hope maybe one day that Earth understands how much I loved it.
Probably one of the greatest writers of the 20th Century.
I have never felt so closer. Here's a man that the weight of his own knowledge led to his demise. Which I still think the jury is out if his wife didn't kill him.
I understand him now more than ever. Knowledge isn't power, it's a curse.
Knowing what I know, seeing what I've seen this isn't a blessing. it's insanity.
When your whole life you've only tried to do the right thing only to have it thrown back into your face that it's just a mistake is a lot to take into.
I WAS THE WORLDS MOST AMAZING FATHER. THE TIME I SPENT WITH MY CHILDREN WAS THE MOST AMAZING AND UNFORGETTABLE TIME OF MY LIFE.
They were my everything.
Because my daughter was used as currency so her drug addict mother could get her next fix and I went after everyone that refused to listen I'm now being showed what happens when you "fight the system."
My daughter is going to talk, just like she talked to me IN DETAIL what they did to her. "Mom" and Danny or what Erin MADE her call her, Daddy.
Everything my daughter has told me I honestly wouldn't tell my worst enemy. It's that fucking bad. I still struggle to live with myself knowing my daughter has been over and over forcefully raped and I couldn't do a fucking thing to protect her.
That's why I'm a failure as a person, father and human being.
I know eventually I'm going to be murdered, drink myself to death or do what I probably should have done decades ago and kill myself.
No matter what happens in the future I accept it's what was meant for me.
I just hope maybe one day that Earth understands how much I loved it.
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