"Today"
I'm so sick and tired of this mundane bullshit I have to live with.
haven't seen my kids in years......FUCKING years.
I can barely take care of myself and I really don't care to do better. What does anything matter? THE entire point of my existence was to have children and have a happy family.
I've lost that. So what the fuck should I do now?
I really don't see a lot of options at this point. Yeah, I've got some money coming to me but what does it matter when I can't spend it on the people I want to?
After I lost you Robert I started drinking really bad. Yeah it was my fault but I'm just trying to tell you what happened so maybe you can try to understand.
I started drinking like really really bad. I've been to rehab like 30 times since. Not just for alcohol....
I was so depressed and hated myself so much I started using heroin. It was bad. I honestly believe I did it so I could have an easy way out to "kill myself." But then I thought about you and Abbi and realized what a fucking scumbag I'd be if I killed myself and left you both.
I'm going to be serious right now and be straightforward with you Brub.
You were such an.......ASS-HAT. You hated me (because of your "mother.") , loved your mother and knowing I've sacrificed everything for you really did break me. I spend every single last dollar I had for years on you. You broke everything I bought you, everything of mine I let you play with and everything in our house, every single major appliance you broke and couldn't care less.
I get it your a child. But why fight against the person that's doing everything humanly possible to help you?
I broke myself but my love, my baby boy, you sure as shit didn't help. I still love you 3000.
So therefore I'm going to open businesses' worldwide and make sure my great great great grand kids want for nothing.
Robert & Abbi.... YOU are the only thing I will ever care about on Earth. #betmylife
I'm sorry I failed both of you. I failed to protect you and keep you safe. THAT is MY ONLY job as a father is to protect and teach. I don't want forgiveness I just want you both to know why.
haven't seen my kids in years......FUCKING years.
I can barely take care of myself and I really don't care to do better. What does anything matter? THE entire point of my existence was to have children and have a happy family.
I've lost that. So what the fuck should I do now?
I really don't see a lot of options at this point. Yeah, I've got some money coming to me but what does it matter when I can't spend it on the people I want to?
After I lost you Robert I started drinking really bad. Yeah it was my fault but I'm just trying to tell you what happened so maybe you can try to understand.
I started drinking like really really bad. I've been to rehab like 30 times since. Not just for alcohol....
I was so depressed and hated myself so much I started using heroin. It was bad. I honestly believe I did it so I could have an easy way out to "kill myself." But then I thought about you and Abbi and realized what a fucking scumbag I'd be if I killed myself and left you both.
I'm going to be serious right now and be straightforward with you Brub.
You were such an.......ASS-HAT. You hated me (because of your "mother.") , loved your mother and knowing I've sacrificed everything for you really did break me. I spend every single last dollar I had for years on you. You broke everything I bought you, everything of mine I let you play with and everything in our house, every single major appliance you broke and couldn't care less.
I get it your a child. But why fight against the person that's doing everything humanly possible to help you?
I broke myself but my love, my baby boy, you sure as shit didn't help. I still love you 3000.
So therefore I'm going to open businesses' worldwide and make sure my great great great grand kids want for nothing.
Robert & Abbi.... YOU are the only thing I will ever care about on Earth. #betmylife
I'm sorry I failed both of you. I failed to protect you and keep you safe. THAT is MY ONLY job as a father is to protect and teach. I don't want forgiveness I just want you both to know why.
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